When a person feels their aliveness — which is part of the process of uncovering living purpose — they encounter their resistance to feeling alive they have felt and compiled over their lifetime. Uncovering one’s living purpose is very hard because people make it hard. People resist life. They squirm against life.
For some spiritual seekers, it seems that enlightenment is about some spiritual orgasm, an euphoric bliss, which is a romantic view but not what seems to happen. I’d rather call what happens ENDARKENMENT. Endarkenment is the end to the pursuit of the spiritual orgasm, accepting the darkness of reality — a void without lies. In this place, possibility is vast and magical.
A go-with-the-flow attitude often is really a resistance to LIFE ITSELF, along with a lack of owning the resistance. A true and healthy go-with-the-flow is about claiming our truths.
Every modality I studied had some or many aspects that actually thwarted people from accepting their magnificent essence. In other words, every modality I came across in some way was part of the problem, not the solution — all modalities had ways that actually taught resistance.
We as a whole — society and the personal development field — are mistaken. We believe that something is wrong with us. What is more accurate and vastly more helpful is that we resist all that is right within us …
This is my first day living in Seattle, 8 months after I snapped out of a 4 ½ year Tango Trance through my exploration of how I have not been fully authentic in Tango nor life by dancing and living as an apology.
Could it be true that pretty much we all believe on some level that we are NOT OK – even the high level dancers that can get a dance with most anyone. Furthermore, most likely many believe, “I am NOT OK, but you ARE OK” or an 80’s pop-psych affirmation, “I am OK, and you are OK.” However, a deeper truth hidden within the Tango Matrix is, “I am NOT OK, and you are NOT OK – but that is OK.”