Unbeknownst to her, I had hesitated in even offering the fact that I had an umbrella, and hesitated to dance in the rain. Little did I know how my life immediately executed a profoundly different beneficial trajectory.
The choice in question I am not seeing past/ not understanding is way bigger – my original choice – TO SHOW UP IN THE WORLD. To this day I do not understand this choice.
As I surrendered to living between the beats of life, my sense of Self, power, connection, calling, purpose, and life direction filled much of my attention as a state of being with knowing. On the houseboat in Seattle I became acutely aware of when, how and where men and women directed their attention, energy, emotion and physicality to each other. I call Magic as the IMMENSE and BOUNDLESS energetic interaction of life.
As one wise salesman summed up choices: you are either looking for a way in or out.
“Love is everything it’s cracked up to be. That’s why people are so cynical about it…It really is worth fighting for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don’t risk everything, you risk even more.” Erica Jong
“To him she seemed so seductive, so different from ordinary people, that he could not understand why no one was as disturbed as he by the clicking of her heels on the paving stones, why no one else’s heart was wild with the breeze stirred by the sighs of her veils, why everyone did not go mad with the movements of her braid, the flight of her hands, the gold of her laughter. He had not missed a single one of her gestures, not one of the indications of her character, but he did not dare approach her for fear of destroying the spell.” Gabriel Garcia Marquez