A bust! Nothing. Nada. Zilch. Zero. Just invested 8 days to drive down to San Diego (4 days total travel) and find a new home. We are left with nothing EXCEPT the possibility of a dream.
WHY? Because my beloved magical wife did what I council my clients and friends to do – Say “NO” to everything that is not your dream so you can say “YES” to your dream. We found places that I was willing to sign a lease on, but they were not in alignment with a big bold new life that we are going for. Some were in bad neighborhoods, overpriced, too small, little light, bad locations or …
But DAMN! I would have rather had something less than ideal, instead of what we now probably have to do – live in an extended stay hotel with all of our stuff in storage. A nomad lifestyle until we can secure what we want.
Life has hit me with one crisis scenario after another – wife almost dying of cancer; my own severe health challenges; bankruptcy; betrayal & some despicable people. Blah blah blah. I do not see myself as a victim. However, I did reach a breaking point a few weeks ago.
With so much hardship, survival fear and angst in my circumstances I just gave up responding with fear and now only have the bandwidth and the will to live big and bold. What does that mean – big and bold? Say “NO” to anything that does not move me forward to my “YES” – what I envision and want.
Does this sound new agey? Woo woo? Magical thinking? It does, BUT this is real —> I have lost so much and have felt so much pain and despair that all I have left is to go after what I want.
Essentially this is GROW BIG LIFE.